Above: moodboard I put together as a reference for a shoot for Kinobi.
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It's been seven months since I returned to my hometown and never has time flown more for me than it has this year. The whirlwind of living overseas, travelling and then making the transition back has been pretty intense and somewhat chaotic. There have been a lot of false starts and ups and downs. A lot of saying yes when I should have said no. A lot of staring into the dark contemplating what I want and need and figuring out how to go about doing that, and then letting go of too much planning because by now I know there is only so much I can control. A lot of reading fairly cringe-worthy inspirational articles, blog posts, mantras, quotes and youtube videos about creativity, work, business (and something about core desires and fire starting and big hearts) - because while it's embarassing to admit, they are helpful and motivating when the self-doubt creeps in. And as far as I can tell self-help and soul searching is pretty trendy these days, so maybe this is actually all just a little bit cool, and not so embarassing after all?
Since my last post I've gotten married (which was a blast), seriously thought about buying a house, then after much indecision decided not to buy a house and rent instead (because while we are decided on each other, we still have itchy feet when it comes to where to live. and on a side to this side note I promise the 'we' is not a newlywed-ism I intend to use often), started and completed a small business course (which was a ballbreaker, but essential nuts-and-bolts knowledge), been on a roadtrip/belated honeymoon to the Blue Mountains (which was beautiful, restful and just what I needed) and begun working on my own little project called Kinobi (which is launching next month - more on this in the weeks to come).
In between the above, I've met some great new people, including making connections with a few internet friends who are now real-life chums. Meeting new people and catching up with old friends, sharing both the deep and meaningful and the cheap and cheerful, has smoothed the rocky road that has paved 2014 so far. Where this road is going is anyone's guess and I've given up trying to see the destination. It's time to enjoy the ride. And to follow the advice of the great Jim Carey, and to realise "you can fail at what you don't want, so you may as well take a chance at doing what you love". Told you, I'm all over the motivational quotes. If you need a spirit guide, you know where to find me.